Janet’s Rich Banana Bread – Review

I’m having a girls night at my house tonight and wanted to bake something for my friends so I went to Allrecipes.com and found this one. I went to the market to pick up a few missing ingredients and put everything together it was easy to do and it also has an easy to follow along video to watch as well.


Original recipe makes 1 – 9×5 inch loaf
1/2 cup butter, melted
1 cup white sugar
2 eggs
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 1/2 cups all-purpose flour
1 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/2 cup sour cream
1/2 cup chopped walnuts
2 medium bananas, sliced

Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Grease a 9×5 inch loaf pan. (You can use cooking spray) In a large bowl, stir together the melted butter and sugar. Add the eggs and vanilla, mix well. Combine the flour, baking soda and salt, stir into the butter mixture until smooth. Finally, fold in the sour cream, walnuts and bananas.

Spread evenly into the prepared pan.
Bake at 350 degrees F (175 degrees C) for 60 minutes, or until a toothpick inserted into the center of the loaf comes out clean. Cool loaf in the pan for 10 minutes before removing to a wire rack to cool completely.

This is how mine turned out

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And of course I had to slice a small piece so I could taste it and to make sure it wont poison my friends haha. The inside is very moist just how I like it and the outer part is also very tasty.


So ya this was my first try at making this and I followed the directions to the T. It was really easy to do and I’m extremely proud of my self for accomplishing it so YAY ME.

I rather enjoy baking. Also to the recipe has an easy to follow along video which I also like. For someone who’s not a huge baker like my self it’s extremely helpful because words sometimes get funny with me so seeing something as well is nice.

If you try this recipe out let me know how it turns out.

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Old Navy Haul

So I recently bought a bunch of stuff from Old Navy and wanted to share with all of you. I guess I should have a fashion part of my blog but everything is in Everything Beauty because fashion is beautiful. Moving on I will list the names so you can find it either on the U.S. site or The Canadian one. But all the links will be to the Canadian site. Also make sure to try and grap stuff when they are on sale and they are having another discount because you can grab stuff at amazing prices.

To just point out I am 6’2 at 161.6 pounds give or take. Just so you can get an idea of maybe how the clothing will fit you. Also my bust is fairly large at a 34DDD but I am wearing just a sports bra in these clothes.

Also I just threw on the clothing so I’m sorry I have no makeup on and some photo’s are not perfectly clear.

The first thing I saw I fell in love with and I have to say this fits me perfectly I’m so glad I did not get the large because it would have been way to big. It’s the Printed Wrap Large Floral Long Sleeved Dress in Tall. It does come in Regular, Tall and Petite. The dress retails for $39.94 but it’s on sale right now for $19.50 but because there was another discount going on I really paid $13.65.


Next up we have T-shirts

The last few t-shirts I bought from Old Navy have not been in Tall but fit perfectly fine in the body. In fact the one that is Tall is a bit to long in the body funny how that is and it’s not my favorite but it only cost $5 and I can’t really complain lol. Any who the next 4 t-shirts are right now selling for $5 each.

Women’s Perfect V-Neck Tees 

Color: White/Pink Stripe

Size Large


Women’s Perfect V-Neck Tees

Color: Aqua Stripe

Size Large


Women’s Perfect V-Neck Tees


Size Large


Women’s Perfect V-Neck Tees

Color: Mini Mint

Size Large


Women’s Perfect Crew-Neck Tees

Color: Neon Stripes

This Comes In Tall

Size Medium


This next cute T retails for $14.94 again it’s in regular size but it fits perfectly fine. I also got a discount on it so I really paid $10.46. Size Large

Women’s Heathered “Old Navy California” Tees

Color: Heather Pink


Hope you enjoyed this post.

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Taking Control Of My Health Care


For a while now my estrogen was covered under the little drug plan that I have up and till recently. I was running out of my pills so I called in a refill since my three months were up. When I went into the drug store to pick them up I was told that they are no longer going to be covered and that I would have to pay $80 bucks. I’m already on a limited budget so I said no thanks call my doctor to get things fixed.

They called and all he could do was give a new prescription on the same pills. Then I went looking for info about some pills that were covered. But then my doctor’s office played the call back game with me and from what my family doctor said nothing was covered.

My family doctor is now over looking my hormones because my old doctor had retired. My old doctor was a  endocrinologists my current one is my family doctor and he’s just a normal GP. Any who so I went a head and paid for it but since paying for it I have found out more information. I just got off the phone with the receptionist and explained to her that I was sorry for coming off bitchy because I had called with new info.  But I felt I sounded rude so I called back to apologies and told her I feel that my doctor does not care and that I am trans and that I know for a fact there is a way to get my medication covered.

I told her the website and info that he needs to go too and that I do not want a call back and till he has done what I have asked. In the most polite way possible. I explained to her I am on a fixed income I can’t afford to be spending $80 bucks. She fully understood where I was coming from and agreed with me on it all.

I also might be seeing a endocrinologists at the Trans Health Center here in Ottawa. The doctor there worked in the same office area of my old doc. That way I can get my mones levels checked since its been more then 6 months and hopefully she cares about her clients enough to do things. Instead of this BS that I am currently dealing with. I understand doctors are money hungry but try caring enough.

Any who so this is the drama I’m currently dealing with. The info I was told about is that here are some medications that are covered under Exceptional Access Program all my doctor has to do is send in a request form or something. But I don’t even think he knows about it or if he does he does not care. I dunno but it’s sure fucking annoying. Any who it will work out hopefully and then I’m not forking over that kind of money every three months. There is also a thing called the Trillium Benefit which I have to fill out and send in which you get money back or a deductible. Or some such thing. I guess things could be worse right?.


So it turns out the doctor at the T H Center is just a normal GP and not a edro doc at all. Just my luck of course whatever hopefully my doctor will be able to help after all crossing my fingers.


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Hair Tip – Baby Powder

So a friend of mine told me recently that she uses baby powder in between hair washings for when she goes a few days from washing her hair. Her hair is very long and she washes it every few days. I have baby powder and have had it for a few years now and I thought I would give it a go on the days I don’t want to wash my hair. Also baby powder has talcum powder at least the one that I have does and it’s by Johnson’s. Also I love the smell of it weird I know but whatever lol.

Any who I thought I would give it a shot. Three days ago on day two of not washing my hair it was looking kind of not so pretty so I dusted some on to my roots and worked it in and then brushed my hair. It did the job to absorb the oil at the roots and gave a little life back into my hair. Then on day three I washed my hair like I would any other time. You do have to work the baby powder in so you don’t have white spots. Your using it just like a dry shampoo because most of them also have talcum in them. But baby powder costs way less. So if you don’t mind the smell try it out.


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No Longer With Brand Backer

I am no longer with Brand Backer. Though I reviewed a few beauty products they really don’t have much for us Canadians. And more often then not all the campaines I wanted to work with were not for Canada. And the few I wanted to work with declined my blog maybe because I am not strickly a beauty blogger. But that is fine. I got to review some cool products which I did get for free. And maybe down the road I will join up with another company such as Brand Backer.

It was fine while it lasted. But as the saying goes everything happens for a reason and I do just want to say I left Brand Backer on my own. It did not cost me anything to sign up with them. And if your in the States and a beauty blogger then check them out. It’s super easy and fun when they send you products to review for free oh and you get to keep the products as well.

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Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD)

This post is all about BDD and my thought is that many trans folk suffer from this in one way or another. somethings to consider for sure. All info taken from Here

Most of us have something we don’t like about our appearance — a crooked nose, an uneven smile, or eyes that are too large or too small. And though we may fret about our imperfections, they don’t interfere with our daily lives.

But people who have body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) think about their real or perceived flaws for hours each day.

They can’t control their negative thoughts and don’t believe people who tell them that they look fine. Their thoughts may cause severe emotional distress and interfere with their daily functioning. They may miss work or school, avoid social situations and isolate themselves, even from family and friends, because they fear others will notice their flaws.

They may even undergo unnecessary plastic surgeries to correct perceived imperfections, never finding satisfaction with the results.

Characteristics of BDD
BDD is a body-image disorder characterized by persistent and intrusive preoccupations with an imagined or slight defect in one’s appearance.

People with BDD can dislike any part of their body, although they often find fault with their hair, skin, nose, chest, or stomach. In reality, a perceived defect may be only a slight imperfection or nonexistent. But for someone with BDD, the flaw is significant and prominent, often causing severe emotional distress and difficulties in daily functioning.

BDD most often develops in adolescents and teens, and research shows that it affects men and women almost equally. About one percent of the U.S. population has BDD.

The causes of BDD are unclear, but certain biological and environmental factors may contribute to its development, including genetic predisposition, neurobiological factors such as malfunctioning of serotonin in the brain, personality traits, and life experiences.

People with BDD suffer from obsessions about their appearance that can last for hours or up to an entire day. Hard to resist or control, these obsessions make it difficult for people with BDD to focus on anything but their imperfections. This can lead to low self-esteem, avoidance of social situations, and problems at work or school.

People with severe BDD may avoid leaving their homes altogether and may even have thoughts of suicide or make a suicide attempt.

BDD sufferers may perform some type of compulsive or repetitive behavior to try to hide or improve their flaws although these behaviors usually give only temporary relief. Examples are listed below:

camouflaging (with body position, clothing, makeup, hair, hats, etc.)
comparing body part to others’ appearance
seeking surgery
checking in a mirror
avoiding mirrors
skin picking
excessive grooming
excessive exercise
changing clothes excessively
BDD and Other Mental Health Disorders
People with BDD commonly also suffer from the anxiety disorders obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) or social anxiety disorder, as well as depression and eating disorders.

BDD can also be misdiagnosed as one of these disorders because they share similar symptoms. The intrusive thoughts and repetitive behaviors exhibited in BDD are similar to the obsessions and compulsions of OCD. And avoiding social situations is similar to the behavior of some people with social anxiety disorder.

Diagnosis and Treatment
To get an accurate diagnosis and appropriate treatment, people must mention specifically their concerns with their appearance when they talk to a doctor or mental health professional. A trained clinician should diagnose BDD.

However, you can take a self-test that can help suggest if BDD is present, but it will not offer a definitive diagnosis.

If your child is preoccupied with appearance so that it interferes with concentration in school or if behaviors listed above appear, talk to a mental health professional.

Effective treatments are available to help BDD sufferers live full, productive lives.

Cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT) teaches patients to recognize irrational thoughts and change negative thinking patterns. Patients learn to identify unhealthy ways of thinking and behaving and replace them with positive ones. Find out about ACT with CBT. Antidepressant medications, including selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs), can help relieve the obsessive and compulsive symptoms of BDD. Treatment is tailored to each patient so it is important to talk with a doctor to determine the best individual approach. Many doctors recommend using a combination of treatments for best results.

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Loving You For Who You Are


Lately I have had some trouble with my own demons. I have decided to just stay being me and stay the way that I am, no more surgery’s staying different and loving my self for who I am. With today’s society sometimes its a little more difficult and this whole trans road is not an easy one I can for sure attest to that.


With even more thought and some good old reading and what not I need to just accept me for me for how I am now. And with that I went looking on Google Images for some inspirational sayings and quotes. And here are some that I love. I made a full album on my Facebook so if I need to look at them I can easily. But here are some of my favorites and this goes for anyone who have self doubts or are having a hard time with self acceptance and self-love.


You are perfect the way you are. There is no need to make any major changes. If you can be happy with the body you have then you are saving your self from possible negative things later on. Of course this has to do with the last few posts I had posted. Which I have since taken down. If I could snap my finger and be the person I wish I could have been instead of taking this path I would do it in a heart beat. But since I can’t, I don’t think having more surgery is going to make any much of a difference for me anyways. And on the health risk scale it’s just not wise for me.


Self acceptance has always been a problem for me ever since I was little. I was told by my mother that she used to have me look in the mirror and repeat to my self that I loved me. And I never did. To this day I have those same moments but they are different because though I love my self I don’t always accept my self for being the unique person that I am.


And I need to start doing this. I think also too that I may have a little bit of Body Dysmorphia Disorder and I’m pretty sure all trans people have a little bit of this if not some worse than others. I mean if you read some of the write-up about it you would see that many trans people are pretty close in this sense.

For More Info On BDD Go Here Or wait for my next blog.

We tend to fixate on different body parts and such and are always wanting to change things almost obsessively. Never being happy with our selves. And I think for most of us we want to change our body’s to how we think they need to be but in reality sometimes its just not possible because your running away from something then just accepting it for what it is. I am well aware the need to make a change but I think if you can learn to be happy with the body you have then your already a winner.


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Transforming Gender

If you live in Canada there is a new I want to call it documentary on DEBUT CBC Thursday, February 26, 2015 at 9 PM on CBC-TV

All info taken from here

The battle over the rights and freedoms of transgender individuals is the first great civil rights struggle of the 21st century. In the last five years, mainstream culture has woken up to the vivid presence of transgender people in their midst. From a generation of gender variant children and pop culture celebrities, to transitioning superstar athletes and soldiers, trans people have never been more visible.

Behind the headlines though, a darker picture emerges. Transgender people are among the most persecuted, least protected people in our society. Many transgender people live in fear of being evicted from their homes, being fired from their jobs, and being denied medical treatment. A 2011 survey of 6,000 transgender individuals found that more than half reported experiencing harassment in public accommodations, including bathrooms, restaurants, and hotels. More than one in three transgender people attempt suicide at some point in their lives. Violence is a constant threat, especially against transgender women.


74% of transgender youth experience verbal harassment at school.

Transgender Ontarians face three times the national employment rate.

43% of transgender Ontarians have attempted suicide once.

1,123 transgender people were killed in 57 countries between 2008 – 2012.

But increasingly, transgender people are organizing and fighting back against the discrimination. And while the pursuit of rights and protection for transgender people is decades behind that of gays and lesbians, blacks or women, few doubt that the era of trans enfranchisement is upon us.

TRANSFORMING GENDER tells this story exclusively through the voices of our characters. Through a set of compelling and intimate vignettes and narratives the film opens up the world of transgender people to an audience that may have little awareness of what it means, and what it is like, to be — fundamentally and in your deepest core — in conflict with the gender you were assigned at birth. And it’s a wide and richly nuanced reality, because every story of transition is different, and every transgender journey is different.

From parents who knew that their child was transgender at the age of two, and children with legal name changes at five years old, to a transgender woman who had gender-reassignment surgery at the age of sixty-six, the world of trans people is as rich and as diverse as any community. And like any group fighting for its right to be free and to exist, the path towards the acquisition of long denied civil rights has been marked equally by great pain and great joy. TRANSFORMING GENDER is a moving and evocative study of the lives of transgender people living in a world that is only just now becoming aware of who they are.

Worth checking out.

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$5 Buck Tshirts at Old Navy

image   Anyone that knows me knows I love Old Navy and right now they have $5 buck t-shirts. And I’m pretty sure the bunch that I have that are two sizes to big for me now cost that much. So I of course had to buy some. I mean where can you get that good of a deal.


Also I’d like to point out that the ones that I have I have had fr a few years now maybe over 4 so that says a lot right there. I also want to say that I love the dresses I have bought over the years as well the jeans from this store. I do wish that they carried tall in store and not just on-line. That being said I do also like that they will offer free shipping if you spend $50. You can get a lot depending on what deals are happening. So with the t-shirts I bought, I also picked up this fabulous wrap floral dress. It’s long-sleeved but the pattern is super pretty. I was lucky to get a discount on it as well since they had a 30% discount going on too. I saw it a while ago and wanted to get it but I decided not to but I’m glad I got bought it as well. I am planning on bringing it with me in August when I go to New Brunswick and PEI. imageI have a thing for floral patterns I think. Because last year I picked up a pair of shorts that had flowers on it and a t-shirt dress that also had flowers on that and a boho dress a few years before also with flowers on it. Any who I think this would be easily dress up or down depending on shoes and accessories. And I have yet to see anyone wearing the clothing I buy from Old Navy which is funny. But anyways I think Old Navy has great pieces and great prices and it’s decent enough you can make your own and when your losing weight it’s great for that too because you don’t have to spend a lot to look good. As much as I Love LTS it’s just too much cost wise to spend my money on one thing when I can get a bunch of things. Last year I bought two fit and flare dresses from Old Navy both are sleeveless one in a dark navy and the other on the pink side. I dressed up the dark navy and my man and I went to Ikeai any who I got him to take a photo of me in it and I posted it to my Facebook page and one of my friends asked where I got the dress because she thought I spent some good money on it and when I said where I got it and that I got it on sale she was shocked. See photo below. image Love these fit and flares my shoes were just sandels or you could easily wear these dresses with a heel shoe or open wedge or whatever you fancy depending on what you’re dressing it for. So Ya take a look-see at Old Navy on-line and have fun with your clothing. Over & Out

I Need A Vacation

I need a vacation

A vacation from my self

Away from my brain

Away from my body


I need a vacation of relaxation and peace

Some place warm

Some place quiet

No noise

I need a vacation away from my self


Away from my thoughts

Away from being trans

Away from my self-doubts

Just away


I need a vacation

Sometime to breath

Get my thoughts in order

To feel the warm breeze


To feel the warmth from the sun on my skin

The oceans warm water

The sand between my toes

The summer breeze through my flowing long hair


I need a vacation

A plane ticket just for one

A window seat just for me


I’m so tired of being me

A break would be lovely

A refreshing time away


A clear head would be nice

A sign of some sort

To know the confusion will pass

Only time will tell


I need a vacation


Lana Poulson