Diva Update

Well as she gets older she gets to deal with aging fun stuff. The last post was last July. She is now 10 years of age. Her poop issue was 99% likely because of the trash incident. We have since learned about that. Moving forward she had a spat of a vaginitis. Cleared that up but also she had a cyst between her toes front left paw. Surgery is out of the question because they can multiply the vet said and surgery and her age just isn’t a good mix.

So we have been doing epsom salt soaks for her as well cleaning it with peroxide and then using polysporin. The hard part is getting her not to chew at her paw when I’m out. I have Vet Wrap for when I go out to wrap her paw as well dog socks which are cotton with little grips for when I’m home. It was getting better but then last night I had tried a dog sock and vet wrap around and she’s managed to remove the sock. So tonight when I go out it will just be the vet wrap. I prey she leaves it alone.

Other than that she’s doing well.


Here is another banana bread but definitely not your typical recipe. With a little more sweetness but no extra sugar, this savoury treat will have you wanting another slice.

If you have a nut allergy, discard seeds and add in whatever you like.

• 2 Eggs
• 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
• 1 1/2 cups all-purpose flour
• 1 teaspoon baking soda
• 1/2 teaspoon salt
• 3 medium ripe bananas
• 1 Tbs 100% virgin coconut oil
• 1/3 Chocolate Chips Of your choice
• 1/3 Unsalted sunflower seeds

Directions: Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C).

Using 100% virgin coconut oil, cover a 9×5 inch tray all sides and bottom.

In a large bowl, stir together all the dry ingredients first. Then add in the wet and chocolate chips / seeds. Mix.

Bake at 350 degrees F (175 degrees C) for 30:00 minutes, or until a toothpick inserted into the center comes out clean. Cool in the tray for 10 minutes before removing to a wire rack to cool completely.

You can store in a plastic container in fridge for about 7 days or put in freezer for up to 3 months. Using plastic wrap and tinfoil


Get Natural Brows Without Makeup

I posted about this method on my YouTube Channel but I’ll write about it here because today I redid this method. My new way of dying my eyebrows is still using Just For Men Beard Dye but not leaving it on for five minutes.

Items you will need.

  • The kit
  • Cotton pads & Cotton Q-tips
  • An angled brush
  • Vaseline
  • Timer


  1. Using a Cotton q-tip put the Vaseline around your brows
  2. Remove the container from the box and mix equal parts of dye and developer about a pea size amount. Using the clear part of the applicator mix together.
  3. Using the angled brush dip into the colour and apply to brows making sure to get all the hairs and carve out your brows basically
  4. Set a timer for 2:20 minutes
  5. When the timer is up take a Cotton pad with cold water and wipe away
  6. Put a little Vaseline over the brows and your done

The reason I add some Vaseline afterwards is I find the dye a little drying afterwards. But it also makes it look good too. I usually dye or tint my brows when I remember too. It lasts about two to three weeks depending on washing your face and that sort of thing. Of course if you leave the dye on for five minutes it will tint your skin. I’ve learned from doing that. But I find by just doing it for 2:20 minutes it does it perfectly without totally tinting my skin.

It makes a huge difference. And on the days I don’t feel like wearing makeup or not a lot it’s great. Let’s face it brows shape you’re face. And from barely there to there is awesome.

Try it out and share your thoughts below.

Over & Out

Updates Updates Updates

So I’ll start with my sleeping, last week I spoke to my therapist about my sleeping habits with what’s going on with me sleeping with the curtains open. It seems to be a coping mechanism. So that night I decided to close them to see what would happen. Guess what nothing happened except I slept like a rock.

What did happen though is this. I missed seeing the light come into my room. So what did I do Friday night slept with them open. It turns out I’m over the fire. It’s basically like this it was traumatic. But I’m fine 🙂. At any given time, some fucktard can set their apartment on fire and I just have to deal with the fact that it may happen again.

Things can and will happen it’s just coping with them that can either change you for the positive or the negative. Only you are in control of that.

Update on the job front.

Basically I had a meeting today with my service provider and we have come to the decision for me to get into retail. Retail I know I can do and if training needs to take place then I’m all for it. I’m open to clothing, home accessories, body products, cosmetics to adult stores. I’ve had zero luck with office jobs and no interviews. So the next step is a position in retail. With maybe government at some point. I need to be working and making a pay check and right now that’s not happening. And with the increase with minimum wage now is a perfect time as any. I already have a good sleeping schedule and if feeding diva needs to change to suit my work schedule then so be it. I’m shooting for part time first to get back into the swing of things and then work up to full time.

I’m at a point now with my anxiety that I manage it a lot better then I have before and I believe Burlesque has helped me with that. Of course there will always be things that may. make it pop up here and there’s but I’ll be damned to let it take over. I believe I’m different then I was seven years ago. And if need be I have better coping mechanisms then I did then. So there is that as well.

Diva Update

She has this stupid cyst between her toes on her left front paw. It’s gross but I’ve been reading on how to clean it with Epson salts and peroxide and then antibiotic ointment. Surgery is out of the question because she could get more. And I refuse to put her on antibiotics that effect her immune system poor girl will be 11years old this August. Other wise she’s healthy.

My Health Update

Doing well weight is still at a perfect weight 165.5lbs. My size 2s are still perfect. My workout I quit doing because I do so much walking. I’ve started doing yoga again but only once a week. Again just to keep limber but not to over do things. Since cutting 95% of gluten from my diet there has been zero rashes or hives. I eat pita 🥙 bread and regular pizza. Gluten free pasta only. As well gluten free cereal. My hair is growing at a rapid rate which I’m loving of course.

My Burlesque Update

Things are going well I’ve had a few weeks off. So I’ve been able to fix one of my costumes. I’ve been putting together a brand new routine it’s called Spirit and I’ll be debuting it in Feb so I’m rather excited about that. I bought these beautiful silk veil fans. And I’ve been quite obsessed with them. I literally have bought two more piece to add to the costume and have bought some less expensive rhinestones to add to the two new pieces as well the top and bottom of the costume. But I did order and already apply some  exquisite swarovski stones to the bra and panty set.

Ive also applied to a burlesque festival that’s happening in May. I find out end of this month. I also plan to apply to one here in Ottawa. I hope to apply with my new act. But we shall see. Other wise I’m performing next week and in Feb.

I also almost forgot I did a photo shoot a week ago and we got some truly beautiful shots. This is just one of many.




Dating Update

Rejoined Tinder, went on one coffee date. Wasn’t stellar. But have been talking to a few people. We shall see. Don’t have high expectations. Best way to be.

That’s all

Over & Out

It’s becoming better

Each day is getting slightly better. Though I’m still sleeping with my curtains open. And having to listen to sleepy music in my ears. I’ve down graded so many of my personal belongings but I feel 100% great about that. I now own one expensive hair brush. A few Jon Renau wide tooth combs which are great for detangling bio hair and one big wide tooth comb. The jeans I had up on Facebook market didn’t sell so I gave those away. I removed two shower curtains so now I own one beautiful fabric one. Honestly living with less stuff just feels good.

And then of course I’m gonna say this lol I did buy a new carpet runner for my front hall and threw out a small rug that has definitely seen better days and though I’ve washed it a bunch of times it did it’s job. I also feel like with living with less it would be easier to move when that time comes.  Obviously you should really love your personal belongings and if they are no longer making you feel joy or just love the items you own then you should either remove them or replace or donate or sell.

Also my just over all style has also changed and it may have been brought to the forefront more so with this fire taking place. I have been wanting to edit my Marilyn collection and just cycle it down to owning just a few items. The need to have more more more is just not what I’m about anymore. It’s not just with Marilyn things it’s with any form of materialistic things.

Having a lot of things doesn’t make me happy and you can’t find happiness in objects that may make you happy for a short time. You have to be happy within. I wish I realized this a while ago. But everything happens for a reason and it’s all about timing.

I now feel really good about cleaning out basically everything but the funny thing is, in the past it would be about cleaning out old to bring in the new only now it’s clean everything out. And not to bring in the new. Of course some items have to be replaced but that’s a little different then to just buy for the sake of buying.

Over all I feel like a different person now in how I view shopping, how I feel about  materialistic things as well my new need on not to over spend for the sake of spending. I feel no reason to own more than I need and I feel great about that.


Downgrading My Belongings

I had bought a book called The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up: The Japanese Art of Decluttering and Organizing by Marie Kondo as well as her second book called Spark Joy: An Illustrated Master Class on the Art of Organizing and Tidying Up. Which I’m currently reading via iBooks.

The fire lit something in me to switch I no longer feel the need to have many things as well  having excessive material items. This goes for everything from clothing to books to dishes I’m not using to having doubles of things or triple in some aspects. Also to  appreciate what I do have and if it doesn’t bring me joy to let go of it.

My plan is to live more simplistic and only keeping what I need and what brings me joy. Today I got together about ten books and went to a book store that will buy your books from you. It’s also a fun little cafe. I went with a bag and sold three books. I then went to a library a few doors down and asked if I could donate the books that remained in my bag. The lady was awesome and said sure no problem.

I held onto 9 books, two which are cook books, my burlesque hand book and six Marilyn books one being more of a coffee table book one biography of her, a costume book of her outfits and a double book I need to read. Most of the books I’m interested in reading are on iBooks.

Ive also sent an email off to the Ottawa Antique Market about my grand mother’s china. See if I can sell that. I’ve also got some Marilyn pictures up for sale as well as four pairs of pants and I already have buyers for the three bras I’m selling as well. I’ve managed to get rid of a lot of paper work that I don’t need to hold onto.

Also my closet is now filled with beautiful things that I love. I have one fleece sweater now instead of three. My underneath garment drawer is neatly done as in my sock drawer. The one thing I’ve learned is you don’t really need to have more to be content. Having multiples is pointless and we live in an age where if you need something it’s easy to buy. Because shopping is constantly shoved in our face. From store to online shopping to email news letters which I’ve also unsubscribed from.

Ive kept a total of four pairs of jeans. Two that I wear always which are the exact same style and color. I love how they fit me and look on me and when I wear them they give me joy. One pair of white distressed jeans I always wear in the summer. And a pair of straight leg that I have at my parents place for back up jeans for when I’m there.

I finally threw out unmatching socks. Tops that had stains on them from makeup that never washed out. Old vet bills that I held on too. Old crap that I never touched and burnt cds that I had from the early 2000s that I haven’t listened too in years. Honestly what the fuck am I holding on to stuff for. Serisouly iv I had only gotten rid of this shit when I moved into my apartment here would have been less trips lol. I also find it much more freeing to just purge. Owning so much Marilyn Monroe doesn’t make me happy it also doesn’t make me love her more. By having so much of her in my apartment. Having a few pieces is fine but having a lot just isn’t my thing.

They say everything happens for a reason and though the fire was traumatic it lit something inside of me. That I wish I knew about my self a while ago. For 2018 my birthday this year I don’t want anything from anyone if people want to get me a gift then they can donate their money to a charity of their choosing. And if we just spend time together then that means more to me. Having a shit ton of material things just isn’t what I’m about anymore. Being more mindful of what I spend my money on is my new motto and really surrounding my self with things that bring joy to me.

I also donated two throw blankets, They were only about 5$ each that I had got from Walmart when I first moved into my apartment. I have one turquoise one now which is faux fur which I love. A red fleece one and a purple flower one and my Marilyn Monroe.

My parents had got me a pink fleece robe a few years ago that I re gifted sorta to my mom which fits her perfectly. I never wear it so no point in keeping it. I also held on to this beautiful top that’s three sizes to big that I got in the States that’s been sitting in my closet for three years. Gave that away.

I don’t have emotional ties to things. I have memories and photos of things. I think at the end of the day if it’s not being used and it’s just taking up space get rid of it. You should see my closet like it looks more spacious and the amount of hangers I freed up. They are now in a container in the storage room.

The books I mentioned above have been really great to read and though I didn’t put all my clothing into one pile on the floor I did attack all of my clothing at once.

Going forward I will definitely be more mindful of what I buy. And only buying what I need. Having lots of things won’t ever make you happy. You have to be happy within your self. I wish I had this fire last year and the years before that.

When you know better you do better and if not then you learn to do better and that’s all you can do.