Every time a man uses me for sex a small part of my soul dies.
When I’m used for sex and not treated with respect my self-esteem becomes worthless
I feel worthless
Men who want one thing from me makes me feel worthless
How does one feel like they matter when they are always used to being treated as less than. When you desire love but don’t receive it. When the men you attract don’t see you as human.
An object for their sexual pleasure. Once they get what they want they throw you aside like yesterday’s trash.
They make you feel like you’re the problem, you’re the crazy one, You’re the one with issues.
People who say you should love yourself in order to receive love from others. But what if what you receive isn’t love at all, it’s bullshit, it’s false, it’s the worthless shit they put upon you.
I have used online dating thinking I may meet a legit nice guy but 99% of the time it’s men who want to use this body for their own sexual desires and then toss it aside after they have gotten what they wanted.
How does one not feel worthless after?